I.
At the dawn of
a new millennium, their prophets foresaw the end of history. Justice would
triumph over ambition and the good of the many would coincide with the good of
the few. Fear and honor would become relics of a tribal past, known only in
libraries where paper copies of the great epic poems sat gathering dust.
Perhaps the
new prophets’ visions angered the ancient gods. What else could explain the
apple of discord that fell heavily from the sky? This evil deed done under the
bright sun threw a vast pall of gray smoke into thin air, casting the darkness
of night over the land. Fear clawed at the people and the prophets once again
cried out for the defense of honor and interest.
These were a
people descended from the Achaeans and the Trojans, the Athenians and the
Spartans, the Romans and the Carthaginians. They were no longer a singularly
war-like people, but the spirits of the old warriors still lived among them.
Those with the hearts of Peleus and Achilles, Priam and Hector, Laertes and
Odysseus, they eagerly boarded swift vessels that deposited them on desolate, foreign
shores. They found that the riches of the peoples of these lands had been
plundered or squandered. Their once-high walls had been laid low and left in
disrepair. The gods had forsaken these lands long ago.
The warriors,
arriving on their sleek vessels, knew these lands were troubled, but they were
not there for empire or booty. They went to remake new cities of men, ones
forged after their image in which justice and the common good would triumph.
They ignored the admonitions, as had their forbears, that he who undertakes to
found a city among strangers and enemies, “must be prepared to become master of
the country the first day he lands, or failing in this to find everything
hostile to him.”
They did not
become masters of the country. They built ramparts, high and strong, to protect
themselves, but only the few went beyond the ramparts and traveled among the
people and they indeed found everything hostile to them.
The ramparts
were built of fear, shored up by indecisiveness, and topped with facile certitudes.
The ramparts set off two starkly different realities that could never be
reconciled. Within the ramparts sat the old kings who refused all advice, believing
steadfastly that they could control the world. Those who traveled beyond saw the
evil deeds that are done under the sun. They learned from bitter experience
that the race is not to the swift, nor the battle to the strong. Fate strikes
on its own terms. The only certainty is that it will strike all some day.
In the end, they
left their ramparts behind and set sail for home, but the way back was
different. Many found themselves tossed on the seas; sailing, searching, lost. They
fought to save their own lives and to bring their comrades home. But some could
not be saved. Recklessness, grand recklessness, destroyed them.
II.
In the end of
the matter, when all was heard, they left little more than their ramparts.
The earth
patiently endures man’s vain toils, then unleashes its tireless forces to wash
away the remains and make all smooth once again. The timeless work of sun,
wind, and water has smashed all man’s ramparts, swept away his implements of
war, and tumbled the bodies of warriors into the seas to be buried forever in
the cool silt of time. The earth sets all things physical to rights once more.
The world of
man is far more than the physical, however. The world of man is a construct of
the mind, in which even the physical is only an image, a snapshot limited in
time and depth – filtered, bent, deconstructed, reconstructed, obscured, and
focused by uncounted, unknown lenses passed down over generations.
These lenses
shape and order each individual’s collection of memories and ideas held in a
wilderness of billions of neurons that course with ever-changing chemical
currents as they encounter an unending stream of new, often incomprehensible
experiences. From this material, each mind creates its own, private world. These
worlds drift on tempestuous seas, held together by the most tenuous threads of
meaning.
Over the ages,
seers, storytellers, prophets, and philosophers have spun these threads, tying
communities together and giving them an outsized belief in their ability to
understand and control the world. The ancients trusted their success to the
intercession of the gods. They saw the fates as fickle, however. Their wisdom
was set down in the words of a great teacher. “What has been is what will be;
and what has been done is what will be done. There is nothing new under the
sun.”
Generations
have come and generations have gone and wise cautions have never been a match for
the indomitable hopefulness of the human spirit. When the power of divine
intervention to fuel this hopefulness waned, humanity turned to new prophets,
who stoked their enthusiasm anew, foretelling that science and logic would lay
the old order low. They divined in the annals of history not repetition, nor
rhyme, but the self-similarity of fractal patterns that could be mathematically
determined. They promised to unlock the secrets of Chaos, the primordial void.
Computers
produced great crystalline swirls that represented the elegance of the fractal,
like the growth of frost on a windowpane, or a large and perfect snowflake in
the second that it remains solid on a small, cold hand in the night. This
enthusiasm proved that there is but one fractal pattern in humanity. From the
one, to the few, to the many, they cannot abide a world that lacks order. They
will spend their lives seeking, weaving, and protecting a thread of meaning.
This thread of meaning, of belief that there is an order in things and that they
will always be a part of that order, is what keeps the individual worlds from
careening off into the terrifying space of utter loneliness. When this thread
snaps, they fall weightless, unique, and separate, like a snowflake.
Water is
patiently irreversible in its work. Snow is immediate and transitory. It paints
the sky in its dancing patterns and remakes the world in hours, not months or years.
But the fresh canvas is fragile and impermanent. There is only a brief window
to wonder at the unblemished blanket of perfect white before it begins to
tarnish and fade.
For that, it
is all the more magical and captivating. So, when James Eacus finally came to
rest on the bench in Paris and the weight of the journey slipped from his
shoulders, he breathed a sigh of relief, closed his eyes, and thought of snow.
He thought of
the warm, dark bedroom in his boyhood home – a space of his own, comfortable
and safe. He remembered the cherished moments, watching the first flakes begin
to float down, testing the night. More and more followed until they were
dancing together in great, sweeping swirls around the lights lining his street.
The earth
resisted at first, the warmth of the fleeing sun still clinging to the soil.
Before long, it accepted the first dusting of white. As the squall built, flake
upon tiny flake painted a new scene. James could think of nothing more peaceful
or hopeful. He remembered how his small hands strained to open the old window a
crack and how the polar wind mixed in eddies and whirls with the heat of the
furnace at that border between his room and the rest of the world.
Just before
closing the window for the night and crawling under the warm covers, James
reached out and swept his fingers through the damp accumulation on the sill and
believed. The new day would bring a fresh start – each footfall a fresh conquest.
Then, if he was quiet and patient and willed his body to be deathly still, he
could collect the silences of a million unique crystals slipping through the night
into a hush that beckoned dreams of wonder and possibility untarnished by the
disappointments he’d eventually come to know.
Some thirty
years later, James let the memory of those disappointments slip off into the
dark. He opened his eyes with childlike wonder, unsurprised to see the snow
starting to float and dance down from above. The facets of each flake glistened
in their unique way as they fell to the ground, melting away at first, then
beginning to accumulate into something tangible and recognizable, no matter how
transitory. This was what James needed. He needed a blank canvas – a fresh
start to put his mind at rest. He smiled the first smile in a long time as the
City of Light shone against the blanket of white.